Am I Not Ready?

Last night was supposed to be the night our DD to sleep alone in her room and in her big bed. But around two in the morning the Mommy, that's me :-), decided to join her since she can't sleep knowing the darling daughter is alone in her room.

I think it is me who developed the separation anxiety. Around ten last night I put our DD to bed. Most of the time she sleeps at ten because she wakes up late from her nap. It didn't take long for me to put her to sleep coz she's already sleepy. After few minutes of cuddling together and telling her story she drifted off to la-la land. I left her room but had the night light on. Both doors of the bedrooms are open in case she cries.

For an hour me and hubby switch turn in checking her out. Hours passed and I still can't go to sleep. Hubby told me earlier that he's pretty sure I will join our DD in her bedroom. I did not reply to it but true enough, when two am struck I was still wide awake and I can't count anymore how many times I got up and check her in her room while hubby was already sound asleep. So I decided to go to our DD's room and sleep beside her. We both woke up at 9:30 this morning.

This then lead me to thinking that maybe I am not ready also to let our DD sleep alone. I need to stop this and be firm. She will not learn to sleep independently if I am not ready to let go. I guess I watch too much HLN where they air and discuss missing kids taken out in the middle of the night while sleeping. Hopefully tonight I can dare to let the night go by without being paranoid and melancholic :-)