A year ago...

...I had a feeling of mixed emotions. Anxiousness, excitement, anticipation, loneliness and happiness. You name it all I had it. The reason being was my coming over here in the US. I was battling with separation anxiety when my schedule to flew here was near approaching. I am the kind of person that is easy to connect with things and people that when it's time for saying goodbye I have a hard time comprehending.

To say goodbye especially to your love ones is a hard thing for me to do. I fight my own emotions because I don't like my leaving to be like a soap opera with lots of drama. Eventhough I am shattered inside I still have the strong facade. My family were also anxious what might happen to me when I get here. Even my friends were telling me if I can handle it being so far away from my family. I do felt the apprehension too. But I made a choice.

While in the plane I was asking myself what I got myself into. Never in my wildest dream I pictured myself living far from where I am from. I made my choice but myriads of questions flickers in my mind. Wanted to unfold the mystery behind my choice.

The plane landed on the US soil. As soon as I disembarked the cold winter chills engulfed me. I followed the throngs of people going to the immigration. I saw different people of different nationalities. I peeked out the airport window. I saw skyscrapers, clean winding paved roads with moderate traffic. No jeepneys, no tricycle and "tri-sikad". I heard noises all over but the thudding of my heart echoes. I pinched myself if I was dreaming. I felt the pain. Then realized that there is no turning back. I am here.

I walked down the alley to where the arrival lounge is. Pushing my trolley hoping in the highest hopes to see somebody I know. When suddenly someone hugged me from behind and whispered "Are you real or I am only dreaming?" When I turned around it was him, my choice and my reason of being here. The love of my life. The nervousness I felt vanished with his presence. I felt the joyful relief. My apprehensions gone and the questions were answered. As he encircled his arms around me I felt safe and at home.

Ahh...times flies so fast. It has been a year since my first step on the US soil. Seem like it was only yesterday. The experience is still fresh in my mind. If I go through it again, I will gladly do it as long as I will come home in my husband's sweet loving arms.